This post is going to be pretty short, but it’s something I realized quite recently. Well, I mean, I’d like to believe I’ve known it for awhile, but it really just hit me, like “yeah this is definitely a real thing…”
So, like I said in a previous post, I auditioned for a play. I probably got a little ahead of myself with this one. Probably didn’t help that everyone around me was so encouraging, but that’s a good thing! You want people to support you and your decisions to do things. However, I got it in my head that I was definitely going to get this part. I could see myself in rehearsals, practicing my lines, opening night getting ready, and then taking the stage. I couldn’t see any reason why I shouldn’t get the part (besides the other people auditioning or anything). And I don’t mean to sound arrogant about this at all because it was, after all, my first time acting, but have you ever had that feeling that something was meant for you??
Well, we all know what happened next. I didn’t get the part, and I didn’t flip out, but I didn’t exactly feel great about failing like that. And if you know me, you know that failing isn’t something that I like to see happen. I guess it’s part of my perfectionist nature, which I’m trying to change. Anyways, I went spiraling down the fact that I wasn’t good enough. But, a couple of days later, I realized that there was no way that being in a play would have worked out this semester!
I have waaayyy too much on my plate currently and there is no use throwing something else on the pile. Some of my biggest goals this year are to really build my blog up, get good grades this semester, and get into a good research program over the summer. I also have to spend time studying and being in clubs and doing group projects. When would I have time to be in a play?? So, you could say I was pretty relieved after I realized this and that it’s okay for me to not necessarily get what I was hoping for.
I guess my point to all of this is everything happens for a reason. I don’t mean to sound spiritual (if you aren’t religious), but God (for me, but could be the universe for you) plans stuff out for you in advance. If it wasn’t meant for you, it just must mean something bigger and better is out there for you. So, don’t stop grinding and remember to keep your head above water. A setback isn’t a roadblock.